Over 20 years ago a young artist sent me an altered found object, a canned food product that was relabeled with her own design. It said, "Jesus is Lard" and it was a can of lard.
I loved that!
My daily menu of food might not sound enjoyable to you, but my low-carb lifestyle has worked for me so far. It's been going on a bit over 8 months, so I've conquered those food cravings and my body and mind are now in charge, not the food. I only drink water, nothing else. I eat chicken, kosher hot-dogs, green vegetables, cashews, cheese, fish... That's all I can think of right now. That actually may be about it.
My oldest brother is in the hospital and that has me worried. He doesn't look good in there. I don't like seeing him in there. He has diabetes and open sores and his body is slow to heal, he has breathing problems... My other brother that was with me visiting was talking to me as we were leaving the hospital and he was asking me about food. All my brothers are big boys that love their food, most of which is deep fried, carb rich, bad food, but that's all they want. He said to me, "If you have to eat like that, (the way I do) cut out all that good food, what's the point of living?"
What's the best cheap food you can think of, something you can buy and fix up at home or on the road? A woman just told me how she practically lives off cabbage because it's cheap. I've been buying 8 packs of kosher hot-dogs for $2 and a pack of Tyson Grilled and Ready Chicken Breasts for $6 microwavable. How about you?
Have you ever planned to cook a meal or dinner for a friend and you messed up, or the food burned, so you had to improvise to cover it up? What happened? What did you do to keep it from being a bad date?
I know with all my weight-loss my mood has fluctuated. I think strange things have happened to me as old fat cells are being burned inside me, some stored thoughts and memories have passed through my brain in my blood stream. Weird flashbacks, old dreams, nightmares, feelings of insecurity, shame, embarrassment...
So many raw emotions surface now. My emotions are so close to the surface, I cry way too easily. If I was back in Hollywood, I know I'd be booking shows, auditioning well, because I could easily cry on queue now.
I started watching, "The Lovely Bones" because I love Peter Jackson and it has a great cast, but I didn't know if I could finish it... Maybe I'm too emotional right now for something like this. To me, this kinda story is so much scarier than monsters and demons, because this stuff happens everyday. I think I just get too caught up in it, cause even with the fantasy elements, there's the crime that freaks me out. If I was a parent and had kids, they'd never leave my sight after this movie. Oh, it's really beautiful and imaginative. I guess I just got a lot going on in my life that's pretty stressful for me right now... Maybe this wasn't the best choice for me at this moment. I had to stop it halfway through to take a long break. But I'm already a wreck. Choked up, tears... I'm a mess. I went ahead and finished it and I'm such a pussy, I cried even more. I cried like Lindsay Lohan at her trial. Glad I watched it, though.
Ever watch biographical documentaries or movies and stop it just before the subject slides off into that eventual VH1 Behind the Music tragedy? The beginnings and the success, I love, but the inevitable decline is not so interesting to me anymore. I can't stand watching a sad movie right now!
I got sad and teary eyed just reading about the vast and neglected graveyard of 27,000 abandoned oil and gas wells dating back to the '40s that lurk under Gulf, just the Gulf alone! Not counting all around the world! That's amazing! What are we doing to this planet?
Post Office announces 2 cent rate increase! That got me sad, too! Glad I stocked up on the so-called, "Forever" stamp. If we lose the post office, we'll be charged for sending every email, I bet. Wonder what Fedex will charge me to send a postcard? More than 47 cents? Just when all the cool kids were leaving Facebook, Myspace and Twitter for letter writing via snail mail, the Post Office is raising the price of stamps! And they won't let you skateboard out front either... Sucks! I love sending postcards, I'd hate that hobby to become cost prohibitive.
There must be some scientific or medical research on this, but if I'm sad or down and a beautiful girl flashes me her boobies, I instantly feel 100% better!
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