I was trying to be conscious of the present, being in the moment, starting thursday night, but friday and saturday both just poured by like quicksilver. I had a great time! Maybe too great a time. I wish I could stop time and enjoy those small precious frames of it. I had great food. I had great movies to watch. I had the best possible company to enjoy it all with. I had great conversations with people that I never wanted to end. I got to ask questions, even very personal questions of people I've wanted to investigate for years and years.
If there was a negative to all this positive, it was still my allergies. I am suffering. Something must be done about this. I feel I'm losing my mind, it's just so annoying! Breathing is an important part of my life and I need to continue doing it.
Also, I am becoming much more aware of my age. I've been hanging around younger people and when I am with them, I feel like I'm 18, but when I see the photos of us together, I am suddenly shaken to see just how old I look. I feel energized and seem to be full of stamina, but when I catch an imagine of myself in a reflection, it's like Kryptonite and my energy is drained. Maybe I should remove all mirrors from my life and all will be well... or will it?
Maybe that's where that whole vampire thing about being invisible in a reflection came from? I wish I was a vampire, but it's too late now, I'd rather have been bit when I was much much younger. Being an old vampire must suck!
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