Several people have asked me if I still practice hypnosis and whether I still am going to school for it? Yes. I do still study it, but have not been able to acquire the needed funds and open schedule to attend the school I wish.
I could use being hypnotized right now! I have fallen into a deep dark depression quite unlike any I recently remember. It might be the drugs I've been taking. The antibiotics and the steroids and the painkillers, I dunno. Something has to be done, because I am as miserable as I have ever been.
Time was, I used to be such a happy guy! I used to be able to turn around any bad situation. I could find the positive and make it work for me. I had all sorts of tricks to pick up my spirits. Now, none of that works. I should be so happy at this moment in my life, but no.
Just not feeling it anymore. I keep hoping tomorrow will be better, but then it never seems to be.
Always trying to think bright happy thoughts and have positive mental images, yet the darkness sets in. I'm thinking something major has gone bad with me. Some thing in my brain isn't pumping out the needed chemicals to make me feel pleasant or even function as a normal human. Sure, it may be the drugs, but my sadness has been shadowing me for 30 years and I'm sick and tired of it and want more than anything to finally find a way to end it.
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